I am the guy who will persist in his path

I am the guy who will make you laugh

I am the guy who strives to be open

I am the guy who’s been heartbroken

I am the guy who’s been on his own

I am the guy who’s felt alone

I am the guy who holds your hand

I am the guy who will stand up and be a man

I am the guy who tries to make things better

I am the guy who’s lost more than he’s won

I am the guy who’s turned, but never spun

I am the guy you couldn’t see

I am that guy, and that guy’s me

Where do I start? I usually don’t try, I don’t make it. It never ends because it never begins. Usually becomes consistently, and now it is always. Always. I don’t write, and I always ask Why?

I am whole, person disconsolate, on the verge of (I don’t know) tears, grief, change? yet safe. I found a monument at the end of space, and though I know not where I really am,
I feel just fine.

Betrayal (背叛)

Rain just won't cease to fall
But you don't seem to care at all
I've been waiting patiently
For your love to come to me
Sitting alone, in my misery

Now, all I feel is pain
And I refuse to keep playing this game
I gave my life, my love for you
Now you left me black and blue
Dying inside, can't get you out of my mind

How can you just break my heart & say goodbye
You told me that you loved me baby
So tell me why, said I win your heart
If I made your dream come true
So I betrayed myself to be the man for you

So why am I still by your side after all these lies?
And why does it still break my heart to see you cry
All I want is for you to have the perfect life
Even if you're not mine

心 有一句感慨
我 还能够跟谁对白
在你关上门之前
替我再回头看看
那些片段
还在不在

紧紧相依的心如何 Say goodbye
你比我清楚还要我说明白

爱太深会让人疯狂的勇敢
我用背叛自己
完成你的期盼

把手放开不问一句
Say goodbye
当作最後一次对你的溺爱
冷冷清清淡淡今後都不管
只要你能愉快

世上也許有事情 我們不希望發生 只能夠接受
我們不希望去了解 但是只能夠去學習
還有 即使有多不願意他離開的人
但又不能不放手
世事往往事與願違
所以許願這回事只是一些彷徨的人
一種自我安慰的方法
可事人總不能只相信自己
走了二十多年起起伏伏
彎彎曲曲的人生旅程
中途趺過 痛過
令我體會到無論你自以為有多堅強
又或者是一個強者
也總會有無助的人刻
這個時候有人會選擇向他們相信的神求助
而我會選擇相信 當壞事壞到最後 好事就會來臨
所以今晚我選擇斷續如常生活
因為我相信美好的事總會出現
只是我們沒辦法預知
它會以什麼形式以及什麼時候發生

This is for you, my sister who is in sorrow :)

Chester See: Why Won't You Smile

Is it something on the ground
Cos it's sunshine all around
Don't you wanna see it
Is there something I could say
That'll make it all okay
And help you to believe it

I feel so weak
Watching you sink

Chorus:
Why won't you smile
Just for a little while
Just for a moment
You can show it, it's alright
Why won't you smile
Give it a try
Just let it shine
Oh why won't you smile

Your tears have gone away

They leave you with the stains
There's no denying
You hide behind your hair
and your bitter broken stare
I know that you've been crying

What did you lose
What can I do

-Chorus-

So the world can see
Smile, if not just for me
Oh smile
Ooh

-Chorus-

Ooh
Why won't you smile

Simple story but Touched [by AnGa இ Lullaby]

Pencil: I'm sorry Eraser: For what? You didn't do anything wrong. Pencil: I'm sorry cos you get hurt bcos of me. Whenever I made a mistake, you're always there to erase it. But as you make my mistakes vanish, you lose a part of yourself. You get smaller and smaller each time.
Eraser: That's true. But I don't really mind. You see, I was made to do this. I was made to help you whenever you do something wrong. Even though one day, I know I'll be gone and you'll replace me with a new one, I'm actually happy with my job. So please, stop worrying. I hate seeing you sad. :)

I found this conversation between the pencil and the eraser very inspirational. Parents are like the eraser whereas their children are the pencil. They're always there for their children, cleaning up their mistakes. Sometimes along the way... they get hurt, and become smaller (older, and eventually pass on). Though their children will eventually find someone new (spouse), but parents are still happy with what they do for their children, and will always hate seeing their precious ones worrying, or sad.

"All my life, I've been the pencil.. And it pains me to see the eraser that is my parents getting smaller and smaller each day. For I know that one day, all that I'm left with would be eraser shavings and memories of what I used to have..." This is to all the parents out there...

One of my favorite song to date... It always lead me to think of those old days in high school and had never fail to put a smile on my face... =)

FriendsForever排排坐

词曲:温力铭

心知己其实悟系好多个

可以了解我 陪我傻 只有得几个

十只手指记得晒 其实悟需要多
真心知己其实需要 一两个

Woo... 我地排排坐
We'll be friend forever
Be there forever
Woo... 我地排排坐
We'll be friend forever
Be there forever

记得读书时。一起背书
一起 进入 体操 比赛 永远都 执输
真无FACES 我地永远悟知 世界有几大
晚晚努力最怕就是系度读历史
一起考试 一起在桥底食 MAMEE
一起追女子 一起计划 我地梦想童话故事

但是 最后 某些各自离开我地梦想就系变成历史
你悟妥我 我悟妥他 他不妥你 甘无知
你又撑我 我又撑你 反反复复的友谊
要经得时间考验同磨练 先至可以
更加STEADY 同坚持. 好够MACHI

我暗恋静宜 你帮我做事
那些肉麻的事你都悟回介意
为我担忧，为我担心，陪我度过最辛苦既失恋时
令我觉得 原来 LIFE WAS'T THAT PITY

Woo... 我地排排坐
We'll be friend forever
Be there forever
Woo... 我地排排坐
We'll be friend forever
Be there forever

大学时，朋友出国读书。离乡背井
心情与兴奋紧张担心
但又好惊一个人 悟识处理事物 最怕 悟够劲.
被人 虾 悟知 要去边度躲
时间慢慢过，我得开始大过。
我走不同个路，走自己走的路
以前细时个梦想都变成 问号

有人进步，有人退步，有人原地踏步。
岁月悟留人，变佐老人吓死人
快快找个伴侣 嫁出去，做个快乐人。
但是望翻转头，怀念一班老死
一起劈酒，一起烂街，一起做贱人。
其实念一念，时间 走佐 永远追悟番
但是 有你们地陪伴过后，什么都值得番
我们友谊无人明白到，伴侣都会甲醋
人生少佐你地都悟知点算好
事实就是事实，无论友谊点变质改变悟到 曾经一起
并肩作战对付敌人的现实
无论发生任何事，请你记得我尼一位

Woo... 我地排排坐
We'll be friend forever
Be there forever
Woo... 我地排排坐
We'll be friend forever
Be there forever..

Life is not being easy on me... Ignore it and I should be ok...

honestly, at this moment in my life, all i can say is,

MY LIFE SUCKS. MLS (cuz i don't wanna say fml cuz that "saying" is making 'fuck' waaaay too casual than it should be. plus i'm not really a person who likes to follow "trends".)

anyway, come on man. everytime smth bad happens, life sucks for a bit. and i say, it's ok, live thru it things will get better. so i raise my patience level. patience level with life i mean. so i'm still normal and not emo on the outside.

and it seems like everytime i do that, before i can even settle my previous problem, another one comes along. like ARE YOU KIDDING ME?

how many times do i have to raise the bloody patience level bar rubbish. this is getting frustrating. how crappy life is becoming.

no it's not easy to always try and look on the bright side of things. and be nice and be polite.

patience is running out.

there's only so high i can raise that bar.