Even when everything seem so misty and I am blinded by it, still I believe I am able to remain calm and get to the other side, because, I trust.

Today's topic - trust.

How much do we trust the people around us? Do true friends really totally trust each other? Trust in this context would be something out of selfishness, out of those wicked intention for self benefit, and it will forever stay even when one is so far far far far far away.

Cut away from the communication world, where one doesn't even have a single glimpse on what is actually happening at the other side of the world, trust holds them together, so strong, so promissing. Yet, trust is able to stand by itself, it is not a two way relationship, 'trust' is independent. One may have total trust in another person, but it might not happen the other way round...

However, I believe that it is really hard to find someone whom you can trust and who trusts you back. In such situation, it is assured that even when one is blinded by time, place, or any circumstances, to believe in someone, those promisses that were never mentioned loudly, the sincerity that surpasses all the lies and the mask of man, trust and believe will always be the silent tool of communication...

This is rest
When the pendulum swings
And my eyes no longer watch
My heart opens
And I hear it
Move
In me

I'm extremely bored right now...
Can't deny the fact that I miss life in Ixora...

The Left and The Right Are The Same.

The star are dim but complete. My mind stretches beyond the black horizon which falls endlessly into darkness. I turn my head. On the left I see the beach streaking all the way to the perspective center. There are footprints on the wet sand, dark waves crash gently. My longing reaches out like a languid hand. I grasp at nothing.

I turn to the right. Candles burn, little glowering flames like stars burning in the sea. My world is turned on its side where flames burn sideways and my heart burns back. I stare, I focus. And slowly the lights etch their fingers on my eyes forever.

I feel creepy(so much hatred) & guilty(for being part of the group) after reading one of my course mate's blog... Can't really mention his name here... I never noticed that he will actually feel neglected since he usually don't participate in any of our activities... I never notice that he will have the thinking that he is useless in our group... The feeling of unneeded in our group... Indeed, bro... It's not that you are not needed... It's just that the time is not right for you to shine yet... Every living things on Earth has it's own capability... But it happens by chance... Your chance is not here yet... And I do apologize on everyone's behalf if we did drag you into the political issue of our group... You can always voice out and we are ready to listen... And honestly, we (at least me) are not looking down on you... It's not that you are nobody... You are somebody, just like us...

I am officially 19 years old.... yay? I guess its a good-bad thing.

well I'll just yay for the sake of it. YAY!

I had SOOOOO much fun today. All I remembered was laughing alot, sweating alot... and laughing some more.

I LOVE IT.

I want to say a few words before I go off to bed.

Thanks SO much to everyone who wished me, be it SMS, MSN, Phone Call, Facebook, Email or whatever, it was really nice of you guys to even bother.

all I wanted was hugs for my birthday, and I got more than what I asked for actually. WAY more...

I felt i was read like an open book, I got everything that I could possibly want. Its as if i told them exactly what I wanted for my birthday.

So what I learned after 19 years of living?

I learned so much.
now, how do i put it down in words?

4th day of mid-term break and I still feel good... XD