I'm drunk...

Great is the day when struck, you refrain from striking back. Even though doing so would have been your right, would have been a huge victory. On that day, you will have gained much, you will have grown much. That is the day you realise that it is never about winning, but about who you are, and who you are becoming.

I have had that day, and sometimes think that those days will help to remind me of the beauty in life. And if those days are difficult, then give me difficult. Because difficulties will pass, leaving behind invaluable strength of character. And...a smile.

Soli Deo Gloria.

Everyday.
All day.

Each of us, we saunter, march, run...even try to flee through our lives. You can never flee. Life surrounds you like a thousand needles. Small, sharp, piercing. And we all need to grow up. But how? How to leave behind the trails of the past? I often wish for complete metamorphosis, oh that life would be so easy!

And so it is that we must be as orphans, wandering strange, unknown paths. Tussling in the wilderness, alone. Me: For I must need to know my own strengths and weaknesses, limits and growth. What fun and challenge is there when we keep relying on another?

Every nanosecond is new, spend it well.

When darkness falls

everything fails

there is only me

no one else

I need time out

to think

this time

I really do need to be left alone

I need to face the world alone

and also, myself

(not necessarily in that order)

for only in solitude am I able to uncover the discrepancies

to rely on no one else.

***

I'm off to search for peace, or absolution, or confrontation. Whatever it is...I want to find it.

Alone in the library... Damn cold here... I just notice that it's like committing suicide when one actually agree to do an assignment that is suppose to be done by 6 people, alone... How I wish someone will be here to help me out... I need help... T_________T

This thing will never end, if I still can't take anger from other as nothing... Words that is suppose to mean alot from others has meant 3 times the impact for me... Help me... This is not the me that I want...

Darkness, darkness!

How it chimes out like faraway glowing cities upon a hill on a midsummer's night.

I'm walking away from you.

There has been some trust issue between the group member since last semester... It all start when we have decided to not include certain name for an assignment... Seems like last semester is not the end to it... People tend to keep things in heart and always have the doubt in the 3 of us, not mentioning their name... What else can I do to make things better??? I have already drop one of the subject for this semester to avoid any possible outcomes of misunderstanding... Yet, they still tend to think that the mastermind roles come in me... Teach me... What else can I do...

Die headache die.

Like a drunkard without awareness, I meander across the room...navigating only from memory. I feel my bed and

flop onto it

like an unconscious frog.

Cynicism -

The word like a dagger pierces my thoughts, mutating their fuzzy lines, it spreads.

I wish I could turn back time.

~REMOVED~

Recently I felt extremely idiot and stupid..wat to do..this past few weeks a lot of shits had happen..life isn't the same as before..too many downs too little ups.. I want back my life... Arghhhhhh

I've finalized my timetable for this sem and it actually turn out to be a boring one... A class a day makes KitSing a dull boy... ~nuff say~ It can't be help since the previous timetable is slowly killing my life, my sleep... That's the best I can figure out for this sem...

sundays, I'm not in love. I doubt I've told anyone this before but I hate sundays, especially in the evening. sunday marks the end of my weekend where classes is gonna start on the following day. and during the evening, i would feel so emo cause the feeling of being so lifeless is there. its like, everything is gonna end soon, and you're basically doing nothing at home. oh well.