I am NOT Dead

but for some weird reason it took me a long time to update. no?

I am just updating for the sake of updating. I have been busy with a lot of things (and nothing) at the same time, what do I mean?

Its not like I am sitting at home just starring at ceilings, its just that I am occupied with things not interesting enough to blog about

things like, sleeping all day, eating all day, sleeping another day... that sort of stuff (things that I find super interesting but it'll bore the shit out of you)




though there's so much to think about recently, and I am fighting to keep everything organized (mentally).

feels like I wake up to a brain clog every morning and its not getting any easier every day.

Then there are times when I feel I am not putting enough effort doing what I should be doing. I always feel that I am rushing a little bit too much that I should slow down, but every time I slow down, it feels like I am just finding a reason to slack.

while everyone is busy thinking about Sem 6, I am already worried about my Internship in the coming semester [maybe not]. Its not as easy as it sounds, especially when you're taking so much risk all at one go.

I do not even understand education system fully yet, how to even start my Internship in the coming semester? what IS understand anyway?!



I was taking one thing at a time, knowing that it is absolutely impossible to do that. Things just keeps overlapping, and there is never a time when I can only be doing one thing at a time, because they are all co-related to one another.

or, you can't do one without doing the other




though I'm not making much sense now, I am not very detailed at the moment.

I hate to jinx things so I like to keep things like these to myself first until I get things sorted out.

until then, I hope it will be an interesting experience, and hopefully it'll be a smooth one as well



big risk big returns right? i hope so