today's thoughts

if i were a kid

when someone does something nice for me, i would be happy and i would like to do something nice in return for that person. from then on we become friends.

if i were a few years older

when someone does something nice to me, it is common courtesy to say thank you and if the chance arises, repay that kindness. from then on, i have to be extra careful because i am in debt.

if i were a kid

when i do stuff with other people and we share even just one single laugh, that laugh is genuine. from then on we become friends.

if i were a few years older

when i hang out with people, we try to share a laugh because we want to make everyone feel comfortable. from then on, i realize its nothing but a relationship on the surface level because we try too hard.

when i was young

i made friends without being politically correct, without keeping a safe distance to evaluate if it was beneficial for myself to have such company, without holding back my grace or care to protect myself from giving too much and receiving nothing in return, and without telling the person this is who i am and i expect you to respect that.

now, a few years later

i wonder how many rules have been set up by myself or by society that dictates what it takes to be a friend, how people now separate acquaintances and friends, friends and close friends, close friends and best friends.

if i were a kid

i wouldn't know any better. and i would love that.